Don't be a little B$^CH!!!

Today, I started my morning so sluggish – I was not always a morning person. In fact, everyone knew me as a bit of a party animal, I loved the night life. In high school, I don’t even remember many nights I went to bed before midnight! It eventually changed when I realized the life-changing habit that is enjoying the morning by going to bed early and waking up early. Especially if their was a harvester or haul-out to go jump in, or a fishing trip somewhere in the Hinchinbrook Shire.

I decided – I’ll put on my active wear (or maybe I was already in it) and rang dad to come in and watch the boys… step one.

Step two was having to order more protein as I was running dangerously low and now I have upped my usage to twice a day…. Hey man – I have goals! So yeah, I was dragging the chain like crazy dad’s looking at me like ‘kid are you even going orrr?’

Step three I dragged my not-so-fat-ass out the front to put on my trainers and I’m sitting there telling myself ‘don’t be a little bitch’ because no matter what I’m doing or what I have to do it pushes me every. single. time – I remember right back to my rehab days having to tell myself that every bloody day to push hard and get stuff done because without being that way there would be no way I would be where I am today.

Step four I got to gym and pushed harder than I ever have before ever! I’ve gone from a speed of 5.5km with an incline of 5.5% on the treadmill as my warm up to 6km & an incline of 6%. I have upgraded from the 45cm block to the 60cm block for my step ups. I can now do 10 inclined sit-ups, however still not 10 in a row, I get to like seven, need to rest for a bit then pump out the last three and I push one, two more till I can’t do it anymore. I’ve upgraded to the 4 & 5kg weights from 2 & 3kg and deeper than deep squats. This is my workout today πŸ™‚ and I did it out the back by myself (it was hottt!) and it didn’t even take me an hour πŸ˜‰

My eating is currently so on point it’s not funny! and I’m seeing massive massive changes happening faster than I ever have before!

It just goes to show it doesn’t matter who you are, if you put your mind to something and believe you will achieve it – there’s a good chance you will! Like Jack says to me ‘patients mummy.’

Aquo Xx

Keeping focused over the festive season…

It’s no secret that girls have to work a million times harder than guys to feel good in ourselves. I’m having to go to my happy place (Tweak Fitness) multiple times a day just to stay awake with my very active little dudes. It helps keep me sane, a little crazy… but mostly sane.

Guys go once, they don’t need to have a diet that is half as strict as us females have to and look like they do and it sucks! Since I started liking boys, I have had a thing for Vin Diesel!

They say it’s the 70/30 rule… 70% diet & 30% exercise…. I like to sit at 80% diet and 40% exercise… Just to be safe! I refuse to get as big as I was (size 20), even though I had good reason for being that large.

If you shop smart, eating healthy isn’t expensive! You can buy chicken from the deli in bulk when it’s $8/kg. You can stock up on frozen veggies so there is 0 waste & just cook up as you need or meal prep to stay on the ball. Fruit – well we all know somebody with a fruit tree/s that you can throw a few bucks at and get quality fruit that doesn’t waste half as quickly as store bought fruit. Snacks – I have 10 almonds and a coffee, or a piece of fruit. A shop remembering I have a family costs about $150 a week.

I try to stay away from dairy and carbs as much as I can – I have found a balance that works for me. I also try eat smaller portions more often – which I manage to do 3 out of 7 days at the moment cause let’s face it – life with a baby and a toddler is hectic af!

I did a thing that will blow the tops off most people’s heads – I gave up alcohol at the end of September and I feel so much better for it! I’m not sure if I’m never going to drink again… I just know I can’t be my version of successful and get tanked all the time.

I’m doing this for me, I’m becoming a fully functioning mum (yeah – I can hold both my boys at once with 1 & 1/2 functioning arms… what’s your superpower?) and I want to teach my kids that the best kind of lifestyle is an active one.

When I feel myself falling, I lift myself back up by looking at pictures of when I was unhappy and reading different fitness motivation memes and they remind me I’m about a year away from where I want to be!

ANDDD I could do this all day, but I will finish with a motivational video that helps keep me focused. REMEMBER – IF YOUR NOT GOING HEAD FIRST, EVERYTHING IN MODERATION!

Aquo Xx

Shredded AF…

Around the start of the sugar cane crushing season I started training back at Tweak Fitness – the only place to be… with Louise Doughty and phoh! does she push me hard or what! But that’s what I want, I don’t want to be this nice piece of ass (for a lack of a better phrase). I want to be strong! I want to get shredded and create a piece of art.

It’s incredible what you can achieve with your body if you put your mind to it. Before my accident I didn’t take much notice, half the time I couldn’t keep track of my period – but now I have educated myself through the internet and reading and have started living consciously… with everything.

The other day I wore bikinis for the first time since I was 17! And you know what – my body looks better than what it did at 17! I am so incredibly proud of myself – This hasn’t been a year long adventure for me, it has taken five years. FIVE YEARS – People usually get to ten months and give up. What can I say – The only reason I’m still here is because I have a bloody HARD head!

It is the best feeling deep down FINALLY being happy in my own skin.

Today I am not in a very good head space, and that reflected in my workout. Louise pushes me hard, but I want to be pushed hard. At the moment, I am trying to be the most positive person that I can be but that is all slipping away very fast with everything that’s going on. Working out is the only thing, I feel, that keeps my mind from going back to dark places. BUT – that will be a forever journey for me living with a brain injury. Thankfully, we are about four weeks away from the end of the sugar cane crushing season -alleluia! This season was hard, for everybody, it’s definitely not like it was 10 or 20 years ago – the sugar is just not there, lack of diversification etc.

Today was one of those days where we finish all of our sets, but I didn’t want to stop, I had so much built up anger that I could have pumped out another three hours – I didn’t want it to end. Louise is helping me create a machine – and you know why I want to do this, I will prove all those chaps wrong, the people that say “there’s no way she can’t do it!” I told Louise, that I will be her little guinea pig and we are going to create something awesome! This is the only thing, that I feel, is for me at the moment, the only thing that keeps me from going bat shit crazy.

Since having my accident, I have proven everyone wrong, with everything and it makes me feel powerful – NOT invincible. The reason I push so hard is because there is always somebody worse off! Check out this video of Andy, this bloke is incredible!

Here are some other articles I have written in the past about this topic:-

Body image – the female perspective

How I rebuilt myself – Aquo 2.0

I’ll keep you all posted – you DEFINITELY haven’t heard thee last from me regarding this topic.

Until next time…

Aquo Xx