This is how…

People ask me all the time – ‘How, how in god’s name do you what you do?!’ – referring to me being a zoo keeper, CEO of our house, building an empire and everything else that comes with it.

I’m not trying to make people feel like crap… that’s the last thing I want to do! I’m trying to show the world that ‘anything’s possible! – but you have to be hungry, like really hungry, starving to want to take control and change your life.’

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This is how I have rebuilt myself. Well – that and the attitude – Ready… Fire… Aim that I have adopted… Every second of my day is planned out. My days start anywhere from 4-6am depending on my time schedule for the day. I have become very disciplined with listening to my body so throughout the day, if I loose concentration etc. I will get up, go do another load of washing, stretch, make a potent cup of coffee, go for a run… Something that will help me to completely refocus – and then I return to doing what I’m doing.

Not every mother can achieve this – AND THAT’S 150% OK! Not every mother has been through a traumatic life event such as myself – essentially that is what has given me this new perspective… this want for a better life, the ‘I’m larger than life… NOT  bulletproof’ attitude.

That stick sticking out of my ass is getting longer everyday… But hey – I put it there. It’s 100% OK because I’m the most real… authentic… most down to earth bird you will ever meet and I own every behavior that feeds out of my being… Even the shit ones… You may not agree with me, and that is also OK… It is a million % OK for people to have a difference of opinion. It doesn’t have to be – “oh they lied” or “That’s not what happened” – no 2 eyes see the same thing and as humans, we as a species do not have the best communication skills…

I’m all about the energy these days! I’ve turned all hippie like… I love my Reiki, massages, being in-touch with my body, etc. It has helped me not overcome my pain – I will always be in pain, the trick I have mastered is being able to not even think about the P word… I have let pain be the driving force behind my purpose.

I wake up in the morning, coffee, exercise (OMG A WEEK AGO I STARTED SEEING DEFINITION OF MY ABS!) then I just let my day pan out how the universe intends it to…  and I attack the most critical tasks that need to be completed. I make sure I’m showered with a clean kitchen before my 10pm bed time – I have a very strict sleep schedule. I’m really lucky in the sense that both my boys now sleep through. It’s all good.

“This determined young woman has taken on board the hand she has been dealt and made it work.” – Nick Dametto MP


Aquo Xx

Shopping with a 2 year old…

So this morning I took Jack with me to do a few jobs up town and left Harry with Andrew as he is on holidays to make things a little easier on myself – how wrong was I! First we went to Woolies to get some more nappies for Jack and some baby wipes, “mummy ball” okay mate you can have a ball because you’re being so good. Next stop was toy world, we had to pick out a new helmet for Jack so I can take him riding (on his push bike) on the path that leads through town in the afternoons. He wanted a pink helmet so I said okay let’s get it, then he decided he didn’t want a pink and had to try on every helmet in the shop. He ended up deciding on Thomas the Tank engine – okay good let’s go. Next door to sports power to get mummy gloves for training, surprisingly he was so good up until that point that I thought I yeah I got this…

Back in the car and the next stop was target to get a new pair of shoes and as soon as we walked through the door there appeared a miniature Satan ready to rule the world. We went down to pick a new pair of shoes and something that should have taken 5 minutes took about 15, at that point I started using the threat “okay we’re not going to Karen’s for coffee.” Usually that gets his attention because he just loves Karen and the girls at JK’s deli.

Then we walked out of target and he couldn’t just walk beside me, nooo that was too hard – he had to roll down the bloody ramp. Then I opened the car okay Jack hop in the car hop in your seat so we can go for a coffee Karen’s. Yang Karen’s. We got across the road and I was parking as he started bawling his eyes out… What’s wrong mate I asked them, “I just want to go home.” Damn I was really looking forward to a double shot iced coffee with a shot of vanilla and as my third morning coffee fix for the day (yes some may say I am addicted to coffee).

It’s different going from this person who had to literally bring herself back from death to having all these big goals of taking on the world and trying not to spread myself too thin across the board and making sure everything is done to the highest standard. Only being one person trying to build a brand is probably the hardest job I have ever taken on in my life – I’m not saying I’m giving up I’m just saying I’m tired. I have a massive to-do list every day with probably three jobs that I have to do for Aquo and the rest are jobs to do around the house all jobs up town.

I’m trying to figure out my why, and trying to be the change I wish to see in the world. And on my wall as I’m writing this I look up and read – heavenly Father, you know every decision I need to make in every challenge I face. Please forgive me for the times that I try to figure this life out on my own. I need you. I need your Holy Spirit to give me strength, with some, and direction. Amen. As I read this I realize that what I’m doing at the turtle speed I’m doing it at is enough. I don’t need to try any harder, everything will happen for me at the right moment all I have to do is keep myself focused as well as organised and everything will eventually fall into place.

Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying ‘I will try again tomorrow.‘ – Mary Anne Radmacher

Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. – Thomas Edison

Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out. – Robert Collier

Courage is not having the strength to go on; it is going on when you don’t have the strength. – Theodore Roosevelt

As I’m writing this I feel that close to a breakthrough it’s not funny! – and remember when things got tough, all the greatest people in this world all have one thing in common – THEY NEVER GAVE UP! I WILL NEVER GIVE UP – tomorrow is another day and I will try again.

Aquo Xx