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Trust yourself…

Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement.

Golda Meir

It was back in 2015 that I actively decided that – “That’s it, get up out of bed and stop being a little bitch!” It was at that moment that I came alive again. I started chipping away at self-development, spiritual development and started a bit of self- education.

After finally moving home back to Ingham (which felt like at least five years – My time perception is really bad now #ptsd) I realized how depressed I was. Being the sort of person I am – I was not going roll over and die, I was going re-create a person I was happy to live with for the rest of my life.

I have had to completely rebuild myself, my life. You see – at 21 I had a horrific quad bike accident that left me with a traumatic brain injury and a severe brachial plexus injury which means my right arm barely functions. I’m working so hard everyday to make it work again. I’m getting movement back slowly – my arm was fused, but in future, who knows what medical technology will bring. I know it will work again, maybe just not as good as my left.

I’m riding the education train, trying my hardest to make life easier for my family. I have purpose in my life now – raising my boys and trying to build an empire… It helps that my impulse is currently out of this world and my head is as hard as stone… really… I took on a tree and I won.

“See me, I’m still standing, I may be bleeding, but I’m still breathing” – is a line out of one of my favourite songs back in my high school days…

I can not believe how much you can change your body in a matter of weeks. Since the above size 12 photo was taken (first weekend of March), I’ve dropped heaps more fat and have toned up pretty decent. It took me until the start of March to be comfortable in my own skin, I can finally look at myself naked in the mirror and not scream and run away. OK – it wasn’t exactly that bad… but you get it, right?

One of my friends from high school owns a coffee shop (which makes me really happy because coffee is life!) And I made the comment the other day that if you think about it – this is me being an adult for the first time… at 28, I’m finally an adult. Before my accident, I was still trying to find myself and wasn’t going about it the right way.

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I guess what I’m getting at is we all need to have a little more trust in ourselves and a lot less self-doubt, because at the end of the day I feel, that is what separates those who are successful and those who are not.

Go forward in life with a twinkle in your eye and a smile on your face, but with great and strong purpose in your heart.

Aquo Xx

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Don’t be a little B$^CH!!!

Today, I started my morning so sluggish – I was not always a morning person. In fact, everyone knew me as a bit of a party animal, I loved the night life. In high school, I don’t even remember many nights I went to bed before midnight! It eventually changed when I realized the life-changing habit that is enjoying the morning by going to bed early and waking up early. Especially if their was a harvester or haul-out to go jump in, or a fishing trip somewhere in the Hinchinbrook Shire.

I decided – I’ll put on my active wear (or maybe I was already in it) and rang dad to come in and watch the boys… step one.

Step two was having to order more protein as I was running dangerously low and now I have upped my usage to twice a day…. Hey man – I have goals! So yeah, I was dragging the chain like crazy dad’s looking at me like ‘kid are you even going orrr?’

Step three I dragged my not-so-fat-ass out the front to put on my trainers and I’m sitting there telling myself ‘don’t be a little bitch’ because no matter what I’m doing or what I have to do it pushes me every. single. time – I remember right back to my rehab days having to tell myself that every bloody day to push hard and get stuff done because without being that way there would be no way I would be where I am today.

Step four I got to gym and pushed harder than I ever have before ever! I’ve gone from a speed of 5.5km with an incline of 5.5% on the treadmill as my warm up to 6km & an incline of 6%. I have upgraded from the 45cm block to the 60cm block for my step ups. I can now do 10 inclined sit-ups, however still not 10 in a row, I get to like seven, need to rest for a bit then pump out the last three and I push one, two more till I can’t do it anymore. I’ve upgraded to the 4 & 5kg weights from 2 & 3kg and deeper than deep squats. This is my workout today 🙂 and I did it out the back by myself (it was hottt!) and it didn’t even take me an hour 😉

My eating is currently so on point it’s not funny! and I’m seeing massive massive changes happening faster than I ever have before!

It just goes to show it doesn’t matter who you are, if you put your mind to something and believe you will achieve it – there’s a good chance you will! Like Jack says to me ‘patients mummy.’

Aquo Xx

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Keeping focused over the festive season…

It’s no secret that girls have to work a million times harder than guys to feel good in ourselves. I’m having to go to my happy place (Tweak Fitness) multiple times a day just to stay awake with my very active little dudes. It helps keep me sane, a little crazy… but mostly sane.

Guys go once, they don’t need to have a diet that is half as strict as us females have to and look like they do and it sucks! Since I started liking boys, I have had a thing for Vin Diesel!

They say it’s the 70/30 rule… 70% diet & 30% exercise…. I like to sit at 80% diet and 40% exercise… Just to be safe! I refuse to get as big as I was (size 20), even though I had good reason for being that large.

If you shop smart, eating healthy isn’t expensive! You can buy chicken from the deli in bulk when it’s $8/kg. You can stock up on frozen veggies so there is 0 waste & just cook up as you need or meal prep to stay on the ball. Fruit – well we all know somebody with a fruit tree/s that you can throw a few bucks at and get quality fruit that doesn’t waste half as quickly as store bought fruit. Snacks – I have 10 almonds and a coffee, or a piece of fruit. A shop remembering I have a family costs about $150 a week.

I try to stay away from dairy and carbs as much as I can – I have found a balance that works for me. I also try eat smaller portions more often – which I manage to do 3 out of 7 days at the moment cause let’s face it – life with a baby and a toddler is hectic af!

I did a thing that will blow the tops off most people’s heads – I gave up alcohol at the end of September and I feel so much better for it! I’m not sure if I’m never going to drink again… I just know I can’t be my version of successful and get tanked all the time.

I’m doing this for me, I’m becoming a fully functioning mum (yeah – I can hold both my boys at once with 1 & 1/2 functioning arms… what’s your superpower?) and I want to teach my kids that the best kind of lifestyle is an active one.

When I feel myself falling, I lift myself back up by looking at pictures of when I was unhappy and reading different fitness motivation memes and they remind me I’m about a year away from where I want to be!

ANDDD I could do this all day, but I will finish with a motivational video that helps keep me focused. REMEMBER – IF YOUR NOT GOING HEAD FIRST, EVERYTHING IN MODERATION!

Aquo Xx

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Shredded AF…

Around the start of the sugar cane crushing season I started training. I don’t want to be this nice piece of ass (for a lack of a better phrase). I want to be strong! I want to get shredded and create a piece of art.

It’s incredible what you can achieve with your body if you put your mind to it. Before my accident I didn’t take much notice, half the time I couldn’t keep track of my period – but now I have educated myself through the internet and reading and have started living consciously… with everything.

The other day I wore bikinis for the first time since I was 17! And you know what – my body looks better than what it did at 17! I am so incredibly proud of myself – This hasn’t been a year long adventure for me, it has taken five years. FIVE YEARS – People usually get to ten months and give up. What can I say – The only reason I’m still here is because I have a bloody HARD head!

It is the best feeling deep down FINALLY being happy in my own skin.

Today I am not in a very good head space, and that reflected in my workout. Louise (my trainer) pushes me hard, but I want to be pushed hard. At the moment, I am trying to be the most positive person that I can be but that is all slipping away very fast with everything that’s going on. Working out is the only thing, I feel, that keeps my mind from going back to dark places. BUT – that will be a forever journey for me living with a brain injury. Thankfully, we are about four weeks away from the end of the sugar cane crushing season -alleluia! This season was hard, for everybody, it’s definitely not like it was 10 or 20 years ago – the sugar is just not there, lack of diversification etc.

Today was one of those days where we finish all of our sets, but I didn’t want to stop, I had so much built up anger that I could have pumped out another three hours – I didn’t want it to end. Louise is helping me create a machine – and you know why I want to do this, I will prove all those chaps wrong, the people that say “there’s no way she can’t do it!” I told Louise, that I will be her little guinea pig and we are going to create something awesome! This is the only thing, that I feel, is for me at the moment, the only thing that keeps me from going bat shit crazy.

Since having my accident, I have proven everyone wrong, with everything and it makes me feel powerful – NOT invincible. The reason I push so hard is because there is always somebody worse off! Check out this video of Andy, this bloke is incredible!

Here are some other articles I have written in the past about this topic:-

Body image – the female perspective

How I rebuilt myself – Aquo 2.0

I’ll keep you all posted – you DEFINITELY haven’t heard thee last from me regarding this topic.

Until next time…

Aquo Xx

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Organised Mumma…

So today is Saturday and today I have a mega velcro baby. I was planning on having a pretty laxed day, because I woke up feeling like crap! WRONG! I saw things needed to be done so I pulled up my big girl pants, had my banoffee smoothie (recipe will follow), a berocca and started smashing out jobs. The baby is 10 + 1 days old and last night slept from 7pmish to just after 3am this morning so I woke up feeling like a new person (until now, he’s has slept 4hrs max). Edit:- Now he sleeps from 8pm till 5am! yay!

I decided that today was going to be the day I start working out again… IT WAS POSSIBLY THE BEST DECISION I HAVE MADE IN MY LIFE…. EVERRR! I am feeling so energised, dealing with two screaming kids is so much easier, dealing with people in general is so much easier! I decided to do a bit of cardio and some weights for 20 minutes and I did it with the baby in the carrier and a toddler jumping on me. It was awesome. I’m going to start turning back to the Fitmom program that Sharny & Julius Keiser started in 2012 and has since become a very successful platform for those wanting to get healthy.

Mums – How good would it be if we could have the same set routine everyday! But I’m a realist and I know that that will never happen! it would be good right?? NO, it would be amazing! I find that getting up even half an hour before the boys get up and have my breaky smoothie and my morning coffee in peace watching the sunrise and process my day, check the calendar and both my electronic diary (phone) and my paper based diary.

If a load of washing has to be put on I will go do that, make sure dinner has been taken out of the freezer, make sure there are enough baby wipes – if not,make more, make sure my toddler has a lunchbox packed for the day (even if we’re at home, Mr independence likes to go to the fridge and get what he wants… AT 2!), put a loaf of bread on (I love my bread maker), and make sure both boy’s bottles are ready in the fridge. It doesn’t happen like that everyday, but I like my Mondays to start of like that, it helps the rest of the week to go a little smoother.

For a snack I like to make my own nut mix:

  • A block of 95% coco Lindt chocolate (you can use any)
  • A handful of dried fruit (Today, I used apples)
  • A handful of Goji berries
  • A handful of peanuts
  • A handful of cashews
  • A handful of walnuts
  • A handful of pumpkin seeds
  • A handful of pine nuts

I don’t measure ANYTHING! I use any nuts, seeds & fruit I have around the house so it works with anything… BE CREATIVE!

For lunchbox fillers I buy a block of cheese that I cut in little squares and put in snack bags (I wash and reuse them as I go through so many). I also buy 2 or 3 boxes of crackers and divide them up into snack bags, and I make sure there are yoghurts (kid ones & adult ones).

This recipe is out of “The healthy mix” by Nikalene Riddle formulated for use with a thermomix

I have learnt the art of speed cleaning – which is all about getting the essentials done without taking up too much of your precious time. During the week, I make sure the essentials get done and on Fridays I get in and do everything I can’t do myself with the help of a support worker. The following blog is all about speed cleaning:-

Speed cleaning – https://www.kidspot.com.au/lifestyle/home/home-solutions/how-to-speed-clean-your-entire-house-in-under-an-hour/news-story/233482497e6b5b63aca995365314e592

Since I have lost over 20kg since the operation to have a plate put in to hold my shoulder in place (as I had a severe brachial plexus injury from my accident), the plate is now sticking out of my arm and causing so much pain – it’s epic! With two kids it is a massive hinderance! Most days, I just have to push through and get shit done – mums out there, can you relate?

I never want to be seen as a failure as a mother first then a friend. My friends mean the world to me – as after my accident I lost many of my so called friends. However, my kids come before anything! my husband, and even my dad – my dad and I are so close. I weanted to see what other mums out there have to say, I found the following blog and much of what is written hits home – BIG TIME.

10 Truths you need to hear when you feel like a failure as a mum – https://keeperofthehome.org/10-truths-you-need-to-hear-when-you-feel-like-a-failure-as-a-mom/

It is so true that you believe the lies you tell yourself when your tired, stressed, run down. Our failures, weaknesses and sins are NOT who we are! The fact that you even care means that there is always room for improvement, growth and adversity. You have to take life in, make the best decisions for yourself (even though we all struggle with that at times) and your kids. When I became a parent I realised that I was in charge of keeping a small human alive and I needed to have more structure in my life.

So yeah – when I became a parent I realised that I was in charge of keeping a small human alive and I needed to have more structure in my life to make sure things ran as smoothly as humanly possible to make living with my disabilities and two little boys as easy as it can be. I still struggle, don’t get me wrong…. I have my blowouts to blow off some steam but then I return to be the best mum I can be for my boys – that means being organised.

Aquo Xx