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Being a mum and wanting more in life…

There is literally so much involved with being a stay-at-home mum, especially for those who don’t have much support day to day, that those people without kids and even some dad’s just don’t seem to understand.

One thing I need to get more on top of is my house cleaning. I’m barely getting a hot meal on the table , usually in the morning I will get out a meal I have made previously – it’s still a meal… It’s just not the same!

My impulse and my need for being a perfectionist will kill me one day I swear! It doesn’t matter if one of the boys have had a bad night – I have a list everyday and if I don’t complete every task to the best of my ability, I find it hard to sleep until everything is complete.

Today, Humpty Dumpty died, I mean, I ate him! I swear I’m eating just to stay awake and study! I’ve completed two assessments for my module today so I’m on top… for once!

I just wanted people to know I’m not dead!

Aquo Xx

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Finding the hero within…

During times of uncertainty, were not going to find comfort in the news, most social media outlets – I feel we need to grow within ourselves now more than ever and revert back to the simple practices in life. Things like building a small vegetable garden to cut the cost of veggies and essentially the cost of a grocery shop. There are ways and means to create anything you want in this life – You just need to find the hero within, the self drive and determination to never give up no matter what it takes.

I feel that to move forward in a positive way through these trying times there needs to be more self education, whether it be to learn how to build a kick-ass chicken coup (like my husband just built) or to get a certificate or qualification you have been putting off because life became too busy.

We all need to take a step back and slow down with our life’s practices. We need to be reminded of what is and what isn’t important in life. bond with your kids, work on your relationships, on your cooking skills, get that spring clean done you have been putting off for the past two years… the list goes on – be creative!

This too shall pass – the trying times, no matter how bad will blow over, eventually as the world wont stop spinning for anything. Maybe this pandemic has occurred as god’s way of trying to slow us all down, the world has gotten to the point where everything happens extremely fast, I’m not saying it isn’t going to get bad, I’m just trying to live with a more optimistic outlook on life.

Take an unpleasant situation and grow from it, economically and personally. Here’s an alternative way to look at life.

from my heart to yours,

Aquo Xx

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Trust yourself…

Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement.

Golda Meir

It was back in 2015 that I actively decided that – “That’s it, get up out of bed and stop being a little bitch!” It was at that moment that I came alive again. I started chipping away at self-development, spiritual development and started a bit of self- education.

After finally moving home back to Ingham (which felt like at least five years – My time perception is really bad now #ptsd) I realized how depressed I was. Being the sort of person I am – I was not going roll over and die, I was going re-create a person I was happy to live with for the rest of my life.

I have had to completely rebuild myself, my life. You see – at 21 I had a horrific quad bike accident that left me with a traumatic brain injury and a severe brachial plexus injury which means my right arm barely functions. I’m working so hard everyday to make it work again. I’m getting movement back slowly – my arm was fused, but in future, who knows what medical technology will bring. I know it will work again, maybe just not as good as my left.

I’m riding the education train, trying my hardest to make life easier for my family. I have purpose in my life now – raising my boys and trying to build an empire… It helps that my impulse is currently out of this world and my head is as hard as stone… really… I took on a tree and I won.

“See me, I’m still standing, I may be bleeding, but I’m still breathing” – is a line out of one of my favourite songs back in my high school days…

I can not believe how much you can change your body in a matter of weeks. Since the above size 12 photo was taken (first weekend of March), I’ve dropped heaps more fat and have toned up pretty decent. It took me until the start of March to be comfortable in my own skin, I can finally look at myself naked in the mirror and not scream and run away. OK – it wasn’t exactly that bad… but you get it, right?

One of my friends from high school owns a coffee shop (which makes me really happy because coffee is life!) And I made the comment the other day that if you think about it – this is me being an adult for the first time… at 28, I’m finally an adult. Before my accident, I was still trying to find myself and wasn’t going about it the right way.

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I guess what I’m getting at is we all need to have a little more trust in ourselves and a lot less self-doubt, because at the end of the day I feel, that is what separates those who are successful and those who are not.

Go forward in life with a twinkle in your eye and a smile on your face, but with great and strong purpose in your heart.

Aquo Xx

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Anatomy is harddd…

Hi team, I just realized I forgot to post yesterday! My usual days are Mondays and Fridays and I love being able to brighten people’s days… even if it’s only one or two people – because I know all too well of the alternative.

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I was smashing my way through my Certificate III & IV in Fitness, being aware of my struggles now regarding knowledge retention – I was aware Anatomy would be full on, turns out it’s not hard it’s just extremely time consuming… It’s safe to say this subject has consumed my life! Well that and raising two toddlers – I’m lucky Jack can speak as well as he can & helps me as much as he does. Harry is now on the move at a rapid pace so life has just jumped to the next level!

But at the end of the day, there’s always tomorrow and I can only do what I can do. I AM going to make this course my bitch and I’m sure as hell going to come out the other end swinging. I have created a 10 year study plan – regardless of the COVID-19 pandemic. Yes this is scary but the virus is here (in Australia) – so what are we going to do about it? Well for starters we need to educate ourselves on the virus – Prevention, containment, symptoms, etc. BUT is there anything out there that factually explains what happens if somebody does have the virus? That’s not a statement, it’s a question, I haven’t been able to do my research – I’m writing this as I’m cooking dinner because like I said earlier, I can only do what I can do.

So until Monday – I will love ya and leave ya… I hope everyone is taking all the precautionary measures that have been advised from the Australian Government but are continuing to live your best life! You only get one – you can let this consume you or you can rise above it!

Aquo Xx

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COVID-19 Pandemic…

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This morning I received an email from Dean Graziosi & Tony Robbins, one of those automated emails that I usually delete unless the subject line catches my attention. This one caught my attention for some reason, It read ‘My advice as coronavirus spreads’ – so I opened it and read it through not knowing how much it would change the way I perceived the virus.

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Dean Graziosi & Tony Robbins

The first question that caught my eye was ‘So how do we find the strength and the certainty to feel okay and focus on solutions?’ and as I picked away at this email, I started to become more positive about the entire situation. Yes – this whole situation will hit the world hard, more people will die, people will end up in hospital, but if we each individually do our part and take sensible precautions, we would end up better off wouldn’t we? Let’s all educate ourselves so that we know what precautions need to be taken to give ourselves and everyone around us a better chance of fighting Coronavirus.

I really would like to know what you think of this pandemic – so please, please comment, post, share, like, I want to hear from you.

I feel, in a time like this we need to all come together and support each other, support small businesses, do everything we can to not only look after ourselves, but those around us. This morning when I woke up my mind instantly started racing thinking about how much this virus is going to hurt our small town, how many small businesses are going to shut down. It’s scary to say the least but I have faith in knowing everything will be OK, I don’t know how, it just will. The big man upstairs (God) has helped me out before and I believe he will help us get through this pandemic.

I pray for my family, my friends, those who turned against me and the world.

Lord, it saddens me that many people don’t understand the power of prayer and even mock me for taking my worries to you in prayer. So I pray first for those who do not believe in you. Where is their hope?

I’ll admit that sometimes you seem silent when I so desperately want to hear from you. It’s torture waiting on you, and yet I will wait because I know my prayers are not in vain. I don’t know if the latest crisis will affect my family or me, but you are omniscient Lord, so I pray that you will spare us.

But if fallout touches any of my loved ones, please comfort them with your healing balm. Sometimes our own choices can put us at risk. So Lord, I pray that we would all be judicious in our actions and interactions.

I can remain in perfect peace because I put my future in your capable hands. Amen.

I believe that in a time like this, where chaos is prevalent, we need role models who will set an example of resilience and wisdom for others, all around the world. Someone to guide you, to help you keep your inner strength, stay positive and continue living your best life. I’m trying my hardest to grow in such a way that I can be one of those role models. I have found my purpose in life – to help others.

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So please, if you need to reach out – REACH OUT! There’s no malice here, I’m here to offer support in this time where the world resembles somewhat of a zombie apocalypse…

Aquo Xx

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Rutt or Ruttless…

At some stage in our lives, we all get that feeling of – ‘Ok, I know where I’m going, but how do I get there?’ And subsequently feel as if we have fallen into a rutt and have absolutely no idea of how to get out.

Sound familiar? Well, that is so me right now but it shouldn’t be, at all, not even a little bit. I feel right now I’m being the best mum I can be – even though my two year old is… well… two 🙄. My marriage is stronger than ever, it was, looking shady as shit for a bit there… what can I say – I’m a physco… but – isn’t every woman after giving birth? My baby is only 10 months old and I feel as though I have come half normal again, so I’m proud of myself in that respect…

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My fitness is so on point it’s not funny. I’m getting leaner, more toned and strong af! It’s awesome how I’m so impulsive now! I’ve become very mindful with my eating, drinking the h2o but I need to pull the rains on my alcohol consumption… not that I’m constantly drinking, I can go 6,7,8,9,10 months without drinking – but when I want to have a drink… I have a drink.

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It’s been a few months since I started writing this piece and it’s been a few months since I had a drink. I’ve come to the realization that if I want to be my version of successful AND build my empire AND raise two decent human boys – (I think they’re human… they do seem to communicate in dinosaur more times than not though), somethings gotta give. Alcohol doesn’t do anything good for our bodies so it can go… I’d like to say for ever – but we will see…

Next is my online presence – it really breaks my balls (another choice saying I picked up from growing up in the shed with the boys) to do this but my boys come first, then my studies which are also struggling at the moment. I’m not going to kill all my sites etc. but I do need to step back and refocus. I need to be able to create quality content for all you beautiful people and at this stage it is dropping off at a rapid pace. I’m hoping to put up a quality piece once a fortnight and I will knock Instagram posts back to once a week.

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I feel as though I’m drowning… and now with COVID-19 rife throughout most parts of our beautiful country I feel as though it will get worse, but then – it will get better. I’m taking this opportunity now to set myself up by putting the right systems into place so when this is over – BAM! The caterpillar turns into a beautiful butterfly and never looks back!

I woke up this morning feeling as though I should chuck it all away – my brand, studies, empire… everything! Then I decided to send my fitness mentor a message for a bit of advice, the words “I know you can do this!” completely changed my mindset… and just like that – I’m back in the game!

Aquo Xx