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I got the juice!

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Today I picked up the good stuff… and guess what?! I had to travel like a minute up the road to get it and it’s completely legal. To those of you reading this having a fit, yes, I am talking about medicinal marijuana in oil form, but my question to you is – Why is your head spinning? It is now LEGAL and is A LOT EASIER TO AQUIRE THAN DOCTORS MAKE OUT!

When I initially researched medicinal marijuana about a year ago, I found it was quite expensive (flights to go to the clinic in Brisbane, $300 for the initial consult then product on top) and there was quite an extensive process that I ended up putting in the too hard basket, I assume it would be much easier to ‘acquire’ marijuana illegally…

I got to the stage where my pain levels were preventing me from becoming a highly functioning person, I was an angry person because I was always in so much bloody pain!

The company I went through to get the oil was Cannvalate and this was the process I followed:-

  1. Through the extensive research I undertook, I came to learn the process would be fast tracked if I obtained my medical summary from my GP prior to having the initial phone appointment with one of the Cannvalate doctors.
  2. I went and saw my GP and told her I needed a copy of my medical summary which was a few pages long but minimized to one page.
  3. I emailed my medical summary to Cannvalate than rang them on 1300 633 226 to book an appointment.
  4. A Cannvalate representative than called me the morning the morning my phone appointment with one of their doctors was calling me for me to take payment – $95 Initial Consult fee.
  5. A doctor than called me and we spoke about my situation for maybe, maybe ten minutes where he asked me questions regarding my chronic pain and day to day life.
  6. The doctor than sent my application off to the Federal Government for approval (which can take up to a month) which came back approved… obviously or I wouldn’t be writing this!
  7. A Cannvalate representative than rang to tell me the awesome news and to let me know I was prescribed a product called Cannatrek H10 Hybrid which is an oil I drop under my tongue measured anywhere from 1.0mL to 3.0mL.
  8. I made a payment of $254.00 ($225 for product and $29.00 shipping) for the product to be posted.
  9. Cannvalate then posted a script and product I was prescribed to the nearest pharmacy that is registered with Cannvalate, which, for me is Guardian Pharmacy in Ingham.
  10. The awesome ladies at Guardian than rang me to let me know my juice was here yayyy!

I feel that those judgmental people that walk around the place like ‘Oh she does drugs’ are some of the most uneducated people going. Educate yourself – like anything, the science that surrounds the whole marijuana plant is incredible! I have been researching it for years and as soon as it becomes legal to grow a plant or two, I ain’t gonna lie – I am so going to grow the most amazing plant that has ever been…

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I am constantly in pain – every waking minute of every single day, even when I’m smiling, laughing, playing with my babies, I’m in pain. I would not wish chronic pain on my worst enemy! When I say I’m well, my definition of ‘well’ is much different to many peoples. If others woke up and feel the way I do every single morning, they wouldn’t get out of bed. I’ve adapted … I’ve adapted because of how strong willed I have always been. I was never going to let what happened to me overcome me – ‘I’ll overcome it!’

I do have really bad ‘pain days’ and I apologise for my attitude on those days, I smile a lot because if I don’t I will end up in jail… see I don’t get sad, I get mad! Like want to knock people out mad… They don’t call me Rocky for nothing! However – I try to keep that side of me dead and buried! Now I can do that! This oil is a god send! Really – It doesn’t matter how anti marijuana you are, if you suffer from chronic pain – you will try anything that gives hope. If used correctly, marijuana is better than any opioid ever created, it can become a habit – but it is a non-adictive substance.

If you would like to discuss medical marihuana oil don’t be shy, send me an email, comment on this post, pm me – I promise I am more than happy to discuss it with you.

Aquo Xx

Rutt or Ruttless…

At some stage in our lives, we all get that feeling of – ‘Ok, I know where I’m going, but how do I get there?’ And subsequently feel as if we have fallen into a rutt and have absolutely no idea of how to get out.

Sound familiar? Well, that is so me right now but it shouldn’t be, at all, not even a little bit. I feel right now I’m being the best mum I can be – even though my two year old is… well… two 🙄. My marriage is stronger than ever, it was, looking shady as shit for a bit there… what can I say – I’m a physco… but – isn’t every woman after giving birth? My baby is only 10 months old and I feel as though I have come half normal again, so I’m proud of myself in that respect…

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My fitness is so on point it’s not funny. I’m getting leaner, more toned and strong af! It’s awesome how I’m so impulsive now! I’ve become very mindful with my eating, drinking the h2o but I need to pull the rains on my alcohol consumption… not that I’m constantly drinking, I can go 6,7,8,9,10 months without drinking – but when I want to have a drink… I have a drink.

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It’s been a few months since I started writing this piece and it’s been a few months since I had a drink. I’ve come to the realization that if I want to be my version of successful AND build my empire AND raise two decent human boys – (I think they’re human… they do seem to communicate in dinosaur more times than not though), somethings gotta give. Alcohol doesn’t do anything good for our bodies so it can go… I’d like to say for ever – but we will see…

Next is my online presence – it really breaks my balls (another choice saying I picked up from growing up in the shed with the boys) to do this but my boys come first, then my studies which are also struggling at the moment. I’m not going to kill all my sites etc. but I do need to step back and refocus. I need to be able to create quality content for all you beautiful people and at this stage it is dropping off at a rapid pace. I’m hoping to put up a quality piece once a fortnight and I will knock Instagram posts back to once a week.

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I feel as though I’m drowning… and now with COVID-19 rife throughout most parts of our beautiful country I feel as though it will get worse, but then – it will get better. I’m taking this opportunity now to set myself up by putting the right systems into place so when this is over – BAM! The caterpillar turns into a beautiful butterfly and never looks back!

I woke up this morning feeling as though I should chuck it all away – my brand, studies, empire… everything! Then I decided to send my fitness mentor a message for a bit of advice, the words “I know you can do this!” completely changed my mindset… and just like that – I’m back in the game!

Aquo Xx

The mind explained…

Talk about mind blown!

Before I was 4 years post brain injury I had never really thought about the brain in depth – it’s just this squishy thing in your brain that has umteen sections that do different things right?

I was way too fixated on anything Underworld related:- The Ice Man – Richard Kilinskey, My mother warned me about blokes like me, Blood money, The brotherhoods… you name it! Because my doctors said to find a subject that interests me and read, but where was that subject going to get me?

It wasn’t until 2018 that anything changed, I learnt about the power of self education, how I can rewire my brain and so forth. In two years I have taught myself so much it’s not funny, I believe that I’m smarter now than what I was pre accident. It all comes down to the brain, getting enough sleep, triggers that help you perform at a higher level and being mindful about everything!

Some facts about the brain:- The human brain is the largest brain of all vertebrates relative to body size. It weighs about 1.5 kilograms. The average male has a brain volume of 1,274 cubic centimeters. The average female brain has a volume of 1,131 cm3. The brain makes up about 2 percent of a human’s body weight. The cerebrum makes up 85 percent of the brain’s weight. It contains about 86 billion nerve cells (neurons).

Did you know – there are links between the art of meditation, mindfulness, the brain and your susceptibility to pain.

The following video explains all, I really liked the brain explained mini series on Netflix.

The mind explained…

There are so many different ways we can all practice self education, you just need to be wanting to better yourself. And sorry, the whole yeah tomorrow sort of attitude wont cut it.

Aquo Xx

Are you an Eagle or a Chicken?

I was recently reading an amazing book called Never give up by Joyce Meyer. No wonder it was so moving, after all it was rated # 1 New York Times…

I took a lot out of this book. One of my mentors taught me to read with a highlighter and wow hasn’t this helped in propelling me forward, closer to my version of success. One story in particular I haven’t been able to get my mind off is a story about the eagle and a chicken.

Here it is – Are you an eagle or a chicken?

Once upon a time, at a large mountainside there was an eagle nest with 4 large eagle eggs inside.

One day, an earthquake rocked the mountain causing one of the eggs to roll down to a chicken farm, located in the valley below.

The chickens knew that they must protect the eagle egg. Eventually, the eagle egg hatched and a beautiful eagle was born.

Being chickens, the chickens raised the eagle to be a chicken. The eagle loved his home and family but it seemed his spirit cried out for more.

One day, the eagle looked to the skies above and noticed a group of mighty eagles soaring. ”Oh,” the eagle cried, “I wish I could soar like those birds.”

The chickens roared with laughter, “You cannot soar like those birds. You are a chicken and chickens do not soar.” The eagle continued staring at his real family up above, dreaming that he could be like them.

Each time the eagle talked about his dreams, he was told it couldn’t be done.

That was what the eagle learned to believe. After time, the eagle stopped dreaming and continued to live his life as a chicken.

Finally, after a long life as a chicken, the eagle passed away.

The moral of the story?

You become what you believe you are. If your dream is to become an eagle, follow your dreams, not the words of chickens. Eagles do their own thing – do your own thing! You don’t have to justify yourself or any of your doings to anyone… be your own person.

Don’t live life with any regrets – every situation that raised in your past is a learning curve that you can use to better yourself for YOUR future. I emphasised your because that’s exactly what it is… IT’S YOUR LIFE – not your parents, partner, friends etc.

follow your own path in life, enjoy the journey, control negative thoughts and don’t forget to be bold. Be thankful for what you have in life and wish well upon everyone equally. Live in the now – I’m not the person you know… I’m now just somebody that you used to know. On that note – just be your wonderfully beautiful self! 😘

Aquo Xx

The Mindset Mentor…

Until I started writing about The Mindset Mentor, I had only ever listened to the podcast – a bloody good podcast but I was ready for more and up until this point I love everything Rob Dial has to say, I have NEVER disagreed with ANYTHING he has came out with.

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I believe not every mentor, life coach, guru or the like, works for everyone… I believe you are drawn to the energy, but mostly the back story of the person you will loose sleep over and become somewhat obsessed with – I’m not talking fatal attraction shit but haha.

This is Rob’s story – “I was raised by an amazing mother and a father who struggled with alcohol addiction. As a child I struggled a lot with my own self worth, and limiting beliefs. My passion for speaking came at a young age.

When I was 15 my father passed away from his long time battle. I remember thinking that I never wanted someone to have to go through what I had to go through. So I went to a could of Alcoholics Anonymous meetings and asked if I could speak at the meetings. I wanted the people in that room to understand how their alcoholism affects not only them, but their loved ones as well. To my surprise, I was rejected as a speaker from all of them because they only allow those battling with the addition in the meetings.

I then turned my focus elsewhere. If I couldn’t help the people who in the meetings, how can help others battling their own problems? Whether that is addiction to food, work, negative self-talk, or toxic relationships.”

This awakening that has recently occurred in me has seriously changed my life! I no longer let my past control the way I think or feel about myself. To all those people who are no longer by my side – I wish you well in your life, but now you’re just somebody that I used to know.

It’s all about self-evaluation, When you wake up in the morning what is the first feeling you feel? Is it something like – “Oh i’m too fat; today’s going to suck etc. etc. etc.” I used to be like that, but changing the way I thought, one thought at a time has gotten me to the point of being able to stop myself from thinking negatively about a situation. Not every time – BUT I’m getting better at it.

Rob is obsessed with personal growth – hey me too! I’m all about riding the positivity train – and those who know me will be like “yeah, right!” But I really am all about that now and I’m becoming a faster, stronger, better person because of it! I’m noticing daily changes with my whole mindset, It’s insane!

All in all, I’m never going back to be the person I used to be – EVER! If I could give you one piece of advice it would be this – “Get yourself some kick-ass mentors! But not just one, try one for every part of your life that’s important to you.

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Aquo Xx

Follow me… If you want to live…

Good evening you lovely people, how are we? I’m just going to start by saying I am currently on top of the world! – But wait, that will change next week 🙄 … So not even a depressive statement, more of a dig at myself regarding the roller coaster ride of emotions I will be on for the rest of my life.

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It is currently 7:30pm on the dot as I am writing this, a little more than twelve hours before this goes live, I’m finding it mega challenging to keep up my online presence but am leaning more towards Instagram at the moment as it can be much quicker. My developing (of my web-page) has come to a standstill as I try and do something with my greatest passion in life (apart from familgia) my fitness! Yes… like, I don’t know… a few million other people in Australia are doing at the moment – I’m studying to become a personal trainer. Yes there are A LOT around but no… nobody has a comeback story quite like mine.

I am so driven that I know I can pull off something great – I don’t know what yet, I currently have no idea what that is BUT I will get there… repeat after me I tell myself (I tell myself everyday because when God was giving out patients I was asleep under the tree) One step at a time!

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My goal for tonight was to find my before photos I took just before Christmas and compare it with now because I’m feeling heaps of differences so I’m guessing others are too! But I’m mentally challenged and can’t remember where I ripped them to on my computer… HAHA! I’m so funny! I crack myself up at times… any idea where I get that from dad? 😋 So I guess a comparison isn’t going to be part of this piece… dam it! I wanted you all to see how hard I’m working, so you know there ain’t no wasted efforts here! Plus – I’m too tired! I’m starting to see noises… not really, but you know what I’m getting at right?

You should all follow my pages if you’re not already… You won’t be disappointed plus I’ll make you laugh when you really need to!

Instagram – @aquoblog

Facebook – @aquoonline

Website – aquoonline.com

That’s me for tonight, I was going to smash out some more assessment but my brain has literally just stopped functioning. Over and out!

Aquo Xx

Aquo the conqueror…

People have been asking – “but how are you doing all this?” – this, referring to my blog, maintaining a website, doing a certificate III & IV in fitness AND raising two babies, the answer is so complex I don’t even know where to begin! I’m tireddd…

It’s not that I owe anyone an explanation, I went from being mentally abused for five years and saying sorry for every little thing that went wrong – regardless if it was my fault or not, to knowing my worth and not justifying every action because I feel uncomfortable. It took a bloody long time for the tables to turn… it wasn’t until I was a few years into growing my brand that I felt the weight being lifted off my shoulders. While I’m sitting here I will write what comes to me… which has been hard for all of January (I scheduled a month of posts so I kept my presence over the New Year).

For starters I have two really well behaved boys (even when there being little shitbags), I really was blessed! I mean – Jack sleeps 12-13 hours a night & Harry is up once still but when I go to bed I put a bottle in his cot so he doesn’t wake me… it’s pretty cool – babies are smart miniature humans…

I started my blog as I felt there was more for me in this life than to only be a stay at home mum, I mean, I have a pretty full on story to share with the world, not to mention I’m as blunt as my kitchen knives – which makes for a good laugh… It helps that I absolutly love writing! I started a book on my story which has been put on hold till after I finish my certificate III & IV in fitness.

YES I know, I tried to conqure too much at once… but that’s just it! I’M A CONQUEROR! Yes – I do need to just focus on one thing, smash it out and then move on to the next… HOWEVER – tell that to all the squirrels running around in my head, I mean, Hammy out of Over the Hedge ain’t got anything on me! ANDDD add a brain injury on top… Yeah – people think I’m crazy, but that’s their problem. It’s not my problem how people perceive me.

Oh yeah, back to telling you about what I’m trying to achieve… So I just started a certificate III & IV in fitness and I have a year to finish that and I have a few ideas brewing but they’re not quite ready yet. I’m thinking then move on to nutritional science and furthering my education because like Tony Robbins said – the more that I learn the more I can help people or something like that…

Anyways… that’s a bit about what I AM going to achieve… stay tuned for more!

Aquo Xx

Aquos back b$*ches!!!

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OMG I’m back – TEDx Talks is an amazing organization that’s a nonprofit devoted to spreading ideas, usually in the form of short, powerful talks (18 minutes or less). TED began in 1984 as a conference where Technology, Entertainment and Design converged, and today covers almost all topics — from science to business to global issues — in more than 100 languages. Meanwhile, independently run TEDx events help share ideas in communities around the world.

So – I found my purpose in life – “I’m Amy Irvin and I strive to be a positive influence for those with life struggles. By following my journey, (through my blog & social media platforms) I hope readers find the motivation and strength to live a more positive and successful life.”

I dare say that will change a million times over the next few years but currently that’s what I’m working towards. I still feel like I’m lost but I’m taking it a day at a time and working towards being that person.

My goals have changed in recent times, I have recently signed up to start my PT course – so there’s that, I’m trying to work towards eating squeaky clean (no chocolate or naughty snacks) and continue to raise kids that grow up to be decent human beings.

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And so before I finished this piece I had to pick Jack up from school and he had to put all of his toys away – and any others he could see laying around, regardless if other kids were playing with them. Then he got his bag and got his lunchbox out of the fridge and put it in his bag, put it on his back and said let’s go. The ladies looked at me and said “Wow – he’s very independent!” – yeah, because at two he can do these things, he’s like his nonno – born full size!

Aquo Xx

Don’t be a little B$^CH!!!

Today, I started my morning so sluggish – I was not always a morning person. In fact, everyone knew me as a bit of a party animal, I loved the night life. In high school, I don’t even remember many nights I went to bed before midnight! It eventually changed when I realized the life-changing habit that is enjoying the morning by going to bed early and waking up early. Especially if their was a harvester or haul-out to go jump in, or a fishing trip somewhere in the Hinchinbrook Shire.

I decided – I’ll put on my active wear (or maybe I was already in it) and rang dad to come in and watch the boys… step one.

Step two was having to order more protein as I was running dangerously low and now I have upped my usage to twice a day…. Hey man – I have goals! So yeah, I was dragging the chain like crazy dad’s looking at me like ‘kid are you even going orrr?’

Step three I dragged my not-so-fat-ass out the front to put on my trainers and I’m sitting there telling myself ‘don’t be a little bitch’ because no matter what I’m doing or what I have to do it pushes me every. single. time – I remember right back to my rehab days having to tell myself that every bloody day to push hard and get stuff done because without being that way there would be no way I would be where I am today.

Step four I got to gym and pushed harder than I ever have before ever! I’ve gone from a speed of 5.5km with an incline of 5.5% on the treadmill as my warm up to 6km & an incline of 6%. I have upgraded from the 45cm block to the 60cm block for my step ups. I can now do 10 inclined sit-ups, however still not 10 in a row, I get to like seven, need to rest for a bit then pump out the last three and I push one, two more till I can’t do it anymore. I’ve upgraded to the 4 & 5kg weights from 2 & 3kg and deeper than deep squats. This is my workout today 🙂 and I did it out the back by myself (it was hottt!) and it didn’t even take me an hour 😉

My eating is currently so on point it’s not funny! and I’m seeing massive massive changes happening faster than I ever have before!

It just goes to show it doesn’t matter who you are, if you put your mind to something and believe you will achieve it – there’s a good chance you will! Like Jack says to me ‘patients mummy.’

Aquo Xx

When I fall, I will catch Myself…

Thursday night I did a thing – I broke my dry spell. I’ve gone four months without drinking and did so well! I was on top of the world – now, I woke up feeling like shit but surprisingly bounced back better than I ever had, or what I can remember anyway. I’m so lucky I had no rum here because 3/4 of a 40 would have hit the spot. No training for me today – everyone at the Health Hub probably thought I’ve died…

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It’s safe to say it will probably be another four months before my next blow out – yeah just like everything – I’m all about the go hard or what are you even doing here?! I guess it’s my biggest downfall, it sucks but whatever right? I’m all about owning my shit these days, no ‘god must hate me’ – no – I did it to myself so I have to deal with it. Thank god Jack had school because I couldn’t deal with him trying to kill Harry all day.

I try and look deeper into myself to find answers as to why I slipped of my path to becoming the awesome self-made version of myself – reason being I feel like everything is out of my control and nothing is going my way, then the voice inside my head tells me I’m the one in control of everything, I can make it happen, whatever ‘it’ is.

I’m sure because ‘it’ hasn’t came to me yet is the reason I’m feeling so lost. It’s the reason I went to the fridge and got a few beers out and brought them upstairs. Then when they were gone I went down to the beer fridge and juggled three more and walked up the stairs – because you know, alcohol makes you awesome, I wont fall, or drop a beer. Wait, beer smashes on the ground, back down to swap it for one that hasn’t gone to battle.

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This is exactly how I felt – My brain was fuzzy all day. My speech wasn’t much better than what it was after my accident. I couldn’t find the words I was thinking of to make proper sentences. My anxiety levels were through the roof and I just want to knock myself out and wake up tomorrow ready to conquer the world again because this feeling is utter shit! I just wanted a massive bear hug but I don’t want Andrew to touch me – that’s how lost I’m feeling.

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What I need to understand is that it’s OK. I know I want to take over the world, create a body that is ‘oh my god’ and raise two boys that grow up to be well mannered, kind adults – like my brother CJ. I am so hard on myself it’s not funny – I guess that’s why I have the ‘Go hard’ attitude. It really is all good, I know I’m going to be my version of successful, I just need a change of scenery so that I can get inside my own head and figure out my next move.

But seriously – watch this space!

Aquo Xx