Lost – The feeling not show…

I don’t really know how to start describing how I feel, or what I’m doing – all I know is there is more out there in this world for me. I feel so so lost it’s not funny.

I have been trying to conquer the world, I take a step forward then I feel like I’m shot back another ten, I hate it. the only consistent practices are my boys and health and fitness – Tweak for life people, tweak for life! This morning Harry was up at 3.30am – nope, roll over, back to sleep. Then again at 4.30am – ok, time to have a double shot short black, my pills & a Voost and head to gym.

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Hopefuy today will be a relaxing day, Andrew and I are doing a last minute trip to Townsville kidless! Wahoo! Party! Haha I wish! But no 😦 Mum is running something similar to daddy daycare today – Jack & Harry, their cousins and mum’s friends with kids, Jack is such a handful at the moment I’m hoping the extra simulation wares him out! Doubt it- he’s like an enigizer bunny on steroids… like really high tech steroids, it’s exhaustimg!

I was talking to one of my dear mates the other day and told him “I’ve pulled my big girl pants up and stopped being a little bitch about life…. I figure I’ve been through a fuck load worse to let everything turn to shit…” and you know what – this is just god testing me to decide what path he is going to send me down next. God has given me life, sent me to deaths door to wake me up, and brought me back to achieve greatness.

God I surrender, I will no longer try so hard to conquer the world, please guide me to the right path you choose to send me down. And please, please stop Jack from going all W.W.E on his baby brother… I’m so worried, I can’t leave Harry alone at all when Jack’s awake – I’m pulling my freaking hair out! Jack has absolutely no remorse for anything he does wrong – sounds familiar, have you met his mother? I send him to the ‘thinking corner’ – nothing, smack him – nothing. Yet when his father is around he’s nowhere near as naughty as he is for me! It’s like I’ll I do is try to get through the day so I can fall asleep and do it all over again.

The only thing that is a must in my day is an hour at least at the gym and for that to be it is shit. A note to myself:- Amy settle down, breathe, go to JK’s for a coffee, chill! Just keep putting along and keep doing what you love… everything else will follow.

Like Jack says – “PATIENTS MUMMY!”

Aquo Xx

Toddlers – like a blender you have no lid for…

Today is the start of a new decade – 1st January 2020. I woke up this morning more drained than usual – I have gotten into the routine to get up by 5am and going to the gym for an hour. This morning I thought I would start off doing the right thing (omg shocking right?!) my body needs a break so I rolled over and slept in till 7.23am. I then got up to a rather loud house – “Andrew I need coffee.” I am so not a morning person but can surprisingly get my ass out of bed at 5am and get to the gym by 6am, go figure.

My two year old made me put Blippi songs on, which I’m cool with because it’s all life skills he’s learning. He turns to me when the ‘months of the year’ song comes on and started singing it. I told him that his birthday is in June he looked at me and said “Yeah, I’ll be five.” – Ah nah bud, three… It went back and forth till he lost interest and it got me thinking…

Don’t wish you were older – ever! I was the youngest of all my cousins and always wanted to be older… I ended up doing questionable things to try make myself feel older, I don’t regret anything I have done in my life cause it made me who I am today. One of my friends once told me “All you can do is try be the best mum you can be.” I am so grateful for that statement, it has made me stop and think before creating some monstrous shitstorms!

Recently, I’ve really started to find the person god put me on this earth to be – and you know what? – I love the shit out of her! She’s a pretty amazing human being. A better mother, a better friend, a better daughter, a better wife, you name it. I’m actively trying to be the change I wish to see in the world and I have started to see it happening all around me. It’s pretty wonderful actually.

Don’t wish you were older… EVER!!! Just let it happen, find your WHY in life and try your best to be the most confident, kindest version of yourself you can possibly be.

Aquo Xx

Shopping with a 2 year old…

So this morning I took Jack with me to do a few jobs up town and left Harry with Andrew as he is on holidays to make things a little easier on myself – how wrong was I! First we went to Woolies to get some more nappies for Jack and some baby wipes, “mummy ball” okay mate you can have a ball because you’re being so good. Next stop was toy world, we had to pick out a new helmet for Jack so I can take him riding (on his push bike) on the path that leads through town in the afternoons. He wanted a pink helmet so I said okay let’s get it, then he decided he didn’t want a pink and had to try on every helmet in the shop. He ended up deciding on Thomas the Tank engine – okay good let’s go. Next door to sports power to get mummy gloves for training, surprisingly he was so good up until that point that I thought I yeah I got this…

Back in the car and the next stop was target to get a new pair of shoes and as soon as we walked through the door there appeared a miniature Satan ready to rule the world. We went down to pick a new pair of shoes and something that should have taken 5 minutes took about 15, at that point I started using the threat “okay we’re not going to Karen’s for coffee.” Usually that gets his attention because he just loves Karen and the girls at JK’s deli.

Then we walked out of target and he couldn’t just walk beside me, nooo that was too hard – he had to roll down the bloody ramp. Then I opened the car okay Jack hop in the car hop in your seat so we can go for a coffee Karen’s. Yang Karen’s. We got across the road and I was parking as he started bawling his eyes out… What’s wrong mate I asked them, “I just want to go home.” Damn I was really looking forward to a double shot iced coffee with a shot of vanilla and as my third morning coffee fix for the day (yes some may say I am addicted to coffee).

It’s different going from this person who had to literally bring herself back from death to having all these big goals of taking on the world and trying not to spread myself too thin across the board and making sure everything is done to the highest standard. Only being one person trying to build a brand is probably the hardest job I have ever taken on in my life – I’m not saying I’m giving up I’m just saying I’m tired. I have a massive to-do list every day with probably three jobs that I have to do for Aquo and the rest are jobs to do around the house all jobs up town.

I’m trying to figure out my why, and trying to be the change I wish to see in the world. And on my wall as I’m writing this I look up and read – heavenly Father, you know every decision I need to make in every challenge I face. Please forgive me for the times that I try to figure this life out on my own. I need you. I need your Holy Spirit to give me strength, with some, and direction. Amen. As I read this I realize that what I’m doing at the turtle speed I’m doing it at is enough. I don’t need to try any harder, everything will happen for me at the right moment all I have to do is keep myself focused as well as organised and everything will eventually fall into place.

Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying ‘I will try again tomorrow.‘ – Mary Anne Radmacher

Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. – Thomas Edison

Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out. – Robert Collier

Courage is not having the strength to go on; it is going on when you don’t have the strength. – Theodore Roosevelt

As I’m writing this I feel that close to a breakthrough it’s not funny! – and remember when things got tough, all the greatest people in this world all have one thing in common – THEY NEVER GAVE UP! I WILL NEVER GIVE UP – tomorrow is another day and I will try again.

Aquo Xx

My Good Energy Family…

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Good energy massage in Herbert Street Ingham, have been in my life weekly since moving home from Townsville in 2014. There is absolutely no way I can get through the week without having a deep tissue massage – I did mess myself up pretty bad in my accident! The team at good energy massage have become like family over the years…

Deb is like my dad, except I listen to her… Sometimes, she has a way of calming me like only my dad can; and Lee is like my mum because she always cheers me up. Don’t even get me started on Lee’s facials ohhh myyy Goddd!!!

Deep tissue massage is a massage technique that’s mainly used to treat musculoskeletal issues, such as strains and sports injuries. It involves applying sustained pressure using slow, deep strokes to target the inner layers of your muscles and connective tissues. This helps to break up scar tissue that forms following an injury and reduce tension in muscle and tissue.

Deep tissue massage offers both physical and psychological benefits. Unlike other massage techniques that focus on relaxation, deep tissue massage helps to treat muscle pain and improve stiffness. But it can still help to you unwind mentally, too.

Lee has a great range of products including salt lamps of all sizes! follow their Facebook page to catch their sneaky deals!

Aquo Xx

My Family Dental…

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Well – where do I start with this amazing family orientated business! You walk in the door to receive possibly the nicest greeting on earth from Emma, Lindsie, Khloe, Kiara and Gabby … They have such a close knit team that makes you feel like your at your mum and dad’s – you know… that really comfortable feeling! Yeah there awesome!

My dentist is Sudeep but It takes effort to pronounce so I just call him James 😂😂😂 It’s a joke now – without fail he knows I will forever call him James!

Once I’m in the ‘evil chair’ I make laugh every time because I’m the biggest clown! We sing along to tunes and I get in trouble because I need to stay still – I CAN’T STAY STILL!

The other day I went somewhere and I couldn’t recognize Kiara because she wasn’t in my family dental uniform – drop dead gorgeous I may add!

My Family Dental has pretty amazing services… I have to get four crowns – yes expensive af! But they are so amazing at sorting out a payment system that works for me so it’s affordable. Emma is great with numbers – lucky cause I sure as hell am not! haha.

They run deals on their Facebook page so watch out for their sneaky deals!

You can also book appointments on the My Family Dental Ingham page, I’m currently on the page having a look around and it’s so functional, they have some great ratings… yes other than the one from me 😜

Good oral hygiene and regular visits to the dentist will help you maintain healthy teeth and gums. I love my teeth that’s why I take such good care of them!

Here are some tips to help you look after your teeth.

  1. Brush at least twice a day. The best time to brush teeth is after meals. Choose a toothbrush with a small head for better access to back teeth. Soft bristles are kinder on your gums.

  2. Use fluoridated toothpaste. Fluoride helps to harden tooth enamel and reduces your risk of decay.

  3. Brush thoroughly. Tooth brushing should take between two and three minutes.

  4. Floss your teeth daily. Use a slow and gentle sawing motion.

  5. Limit acidic drinks like soft drinks, cordials and fruit juices. Food acids soften tooth material and dissolve the minerals in tooth enamel, causing holes (cavities or caries). In severe cases, teeth may be ‘eaten’ right down to the gum.

  6. Limit sugary foods. Bacteria in dental plaque change sugars into acids.

  7. Protect your teeth from injury. Wear a mouthguard or full-face helmet when playing sports.

  8. Try to save a knocked out tooth. If possible, hold the tooth back in place while you seek immediate dental advice. If this is not possible, wrap the tooth in plastic or place it in milk and seek dental advice immediately.

  9. Avoid using your teeth for anything other than chewing food. If you use them to crack nuts, remove bottle tops or rip open packaging, you risk chipping or even breaking your teeth.

  10. See your dentist for regular check-ups. You should also visit your dentist if you have a dental problem such as a toothache or bleeding gums.
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If you are looking for a great dentist that actually cares about improving your smile and helping you budget in the cost of whatever treatment you require – go see My Family Dental and I’m sure one of the lovely ladies will help you out!

ALL YOU CAN DO IS ASK – who knows… the answer may be YES!

Aquo Xx

How bad do you ACTUALLY want it…

Lots of people want to get in shape, do great things, travel the world, live an adventure and tell a good story with their life, but there’s a big difference between saying you want something and wanting something bad enough to do something about it.

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You can say I’ve been smashed in the face by life – this is my time to hit back! You need to show up EVERY.SINGLE.DAY to achieve greatness, so I’m going for it and I’m not looking back! Champions take full responsibility for their outcomes that is the reason why I physiologically need to spend at least an hour at gym a day – even if it is just walking on the treadmill, doing some cardio and spending a bit of time doing physio on my arm.

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I know I talk a lot… I love to talk… I talk in my sleep – they say you should spend less time talking and more time pumping iron, well, I show up and talk through my whole session because I know what I’m going to achieve – The best freaking version of self-made you ever did see!

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Something I need to crank my intensity on is my morning routine – it’s defiantly a challenge with two babies… I didn’t say it was impossible but! I don’t believe in the world impossible – that word is for losers!

They say you should start the day in silence to better plan around your day. I try not to use my phone for 1st hour of being awake – mainly because I’m feeding children, putting the washing on, dressing children, dressing myself, remembering to feed myself… and the list goes on!

My day looks like this… I have a monstrous coffee, a Voost energy tablet (like Berocca but with guarana) and I eat a well balanced meal to fuel me for my insanely active day! I have a list for everyday of all of my to do’s. I use google calendar (which is awesome!) because when your phone updates it’s on the cloud so you don’t loose anything. I check for any appointments and I go from there. Somewhere in there I take some time for me to say my affirmations – it may be while I’m putting on the washing or cleaning a shitty bum… who knows!

I do at least a load of washing everyday. I have become much more functional with only having one active arm and have adapted quite well to be able to complete almost all my daily tasks by myself. I have actively been working to become more independent – even with my babies.

I usually write or do my content planning (which is a mess BTW) when the boys go for a nap or when the kids next door come to play. I try to be ahead but it’s difficult to find the time with my crazy lifestyle!

In life, I set goals – but it comes down to how bad do you ACTUALLY want it! A champion starts counting when pain arrives, I will eventually step up to that level!

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I have a vision…

You can achieve greatness – you just need someone to believe in you – For me I believe it’s easy for family to agree with what you want to achieve… But when people stop you in the street to tell you how proud of you – that’s when you get that warm feeling in your heart and at that moment your fueled with a little more motivation to keep going.

If I can push myself this hard living life with chronic pain – what’s stopping you? I’m a million times dedicated to show the world what AWESOME actually looks like! There is greatness inside of you – all you need is for someone to push you until you believe in yourself enough to take the first step.

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My destiny is greatness – I’m not sill here living a life I nearly lost to not achieve greatness. It will take some time… I know that – BUT I’m willing to work for it, even more I’m willing to bleed for it!

EVERYONE WANTS TO EAT… ONLY FEW ARE WILLING TO HUNT!

I AM WILLING AND COMMITTED TO CREATING THE BEST EVER VERSION OF ME!

IF YOUR IN THE ROAD OF MY GOALS – I SUGGEST YOU MOVE…

Aquo Xx

Happy New Year…

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL YOU BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE! Wishes of success in the coming year 2020! Let the New Year 2020 abound in professional successes, bring satisfaction and satisfaction from the actions and challenges take and all well-being in your personal life!

Don’t let this year’s resolutions be empty promises to yourself.

So let’s get straight into it! What are your goals for this year?

My biggest goals include:-

1 – Having at least one of my books published by the end of 2020.

2 – Creating my version of a healthier/stronger me by the end of 2020.

3 – Create at least one new professional networking connection per month.

4 – Have professional head shots taken by December 2020.

5 – Be as present as I possibly can to my boys (that’s sanely possible).

A New Year is like a blank notebook. You get to write anything you want in it. Fill the first page of your notebook with your New Year’s resolutions. Live your best life by setting resolutions to make 2020 your best year ever.

Aquo Xx